Sunday, August 1, 2010
The Bishop Came By!
Ack, oh nos! Yup, I told some people I didn't believe and next thing I know the Bishop comes by with them. Of course I expected this, the bishop isn't going to avoid once he learns where I stand. It was a little intimidating though, I expected that too, but I instantly felt I needed to be as straightforward as possible and to show that I'm not even evil person and need to be kicked out of BYU. Of course I probably won't be staying at BYU till I graduate anymore, cause he gave an impression that I would have 'issues' getting an Ecclesiastical endorsement next year. Which seems fair given what the endorsement is and that I know what it is. But maybe I won't be graduating here after all.
Which I really don't know what I'd do if I couldn't. I guess my parents would eventually find out I didn't graduate from BYU, though I could keep it secret, at least till graduation which they would come over here for, lol, but that would be so ridiculous to try to pull off. I guess I need to come out to my parents at some point, cause keeping it all a secret seems like too much running around. Though, I don't really want to tell them.
Reason: they love me, would still love, we have a great relationship, I think even better since I 'lost' my faith (how you lose something like that I don't know), but there is a lot of family stress right now, and will be for a while longer, and I'm not sure telling them would help either of them. Kind of sad, but maybe it can't be avoided.
So having the bishop come by was a good thing. Told me to come out to church, that he misses seeing me around, and that I really need to think about what I'm going to do with graduating college. Lol, yup, direction in life is a good thing. Especially if the directions I can go are suddenly limited by my lack of faith.
On a different note, what the hell is he doing to that dinosaur?